Oh god oh god oh god oh god I lost her number I lost the number OF THE
ONLY FUCKING PERSON WHO CAN CALM ME DOWN why the fuck is this happening
this can’t be happening why is this happening it’s not fair I need to
talk to her oh god oh god oh god why the fuck is this happening.
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Trigger 2
Why can’t I trust anyone again. Why is this happening AGAIN. I want
to trust. Why can’t I trust. God damn it just when I was getting better
this shit has to happen. I thought I was over this. Why can’t I be over
this. Please dear god. I need to be over this. Please. I want to trust
again why am I so fucking weak that I’m even letting him get into my
existence I don’t want him here get out of my head get out of my head I
wanna forget why can’t I forget why can’t I forget?
Someone get me a fucking razor.
Trigger
Why is this happening why is it that everything has to come crashing
down again I lost my grandfather and my may-as-well-be-sister cousin my
mom hates me my step dad hates me everyone hates me and I’m just a
selfish bitch for complaining and I hate myself for it and please dear
god nobody see this I don’t fucking deserve to live I’m just like my
father aren’t I I’m just like my fucking father I’m a liar and a
hypocrite and I should just fucking die and I don’t want to be anymore I
don’t want to try I just want to stay in my house for the rest of my
life I don’t want anyone to know I exist and I want to stay in here and
starve to death because I’m so fucking fat I don’t deserve to eat and I
am so fucking ugly I’m not a good person I’m a horrible person I’m too
afraid to call my best friend because I would make her leave too and I’m
sick of being alone but I just want to be alone can someone please just
fucking kill me already why do I have to be so useless why do I have to
hurt everyone it’s not fair it’s not fair it’s not fair why why why why
why why why
Thursday, April 26, 2012
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